Sometimes you feel you do not know what to do. Many times. Oftentimes. You do not know where to start, or where to end. You do not know where to go, or whom to seek. So you read in hope of finding the answer written by someone somewhere in those oceans of lines throughout that universe of pages; you write in hope of finding the answer yourself, for it could be right inside you, somehow, somewhere, and it should be; you listen in hope of hearing some idea, some awakening thought or inspiration or experience, to help you solve your own mystery; but you never speak. And what good is it to speak if no one will hear? And what good is it to speak if you are not sure what to say, or how to say it?
Thinking about it, you become consumed: gradually eroded, like an unfortunate land, once green and lively and happy, soon yellow and cracked and wretched; gradually corroded, like a dismantled metal, once shiny and robust and efficient, soon rusty and fragile and disposable. It totally takes over you, all over you: a mind not willing to think anymore, a heart not willing to feel anymore, and a body not willing to operate anymore. Standing still, in despair, in the middle of the highway, where everybody around you is running past you, everybody, but you.
So you read again, you write again, you listen again, but still so quiet. And the more you read and write and listen, the more you see it and hear it over and over again. The answer is right in there, and right up there, with the Glorified Lord of everywhere. It is written by the people before in the books and articles and reflections you read, it is said by the people you encounter and listen to as guidance to the way out, and even when you write, your words simply refer to it, for you know it but you do not believe it. But you are still missing something, to be heard.
Speak up so that you can be heard. Speak up towards the One and plead. Raise your hands up, turn your head up, open your heart up, and clear your mind up, and speak. No matter how to say it, no matter what to say, He will hear. He always hears. So speak up and be sure that the answers to all your questions are to be provided. Speak up, believe, and be certain that you rest on solid unshakable grounds, that you will get what is best for you, and that He verily responds to whoever calls, whoever believes, whoever follows the right way.
