Near and Far

Sometimes I feel you are getting near to me, so near to become even part of myself. I really love the idea and how it feels, so I ignore all the calculations in my head and I disregard all the societal and even commonsense rules in this world we are living in to become so near to you, nearer than I ever thought I would. Then I lose myself .. I just lose it all, all for your lone sake. Then I become occupied, totally occupied with you all over inside me. And at this point you no longer become near to me, for the laws of distance and matter become broken all of a sudden, and you and me become just one entity. Or that's what I think we become, at least for a good while...

Other times I feel you are far, so far to reach. A mirage in the desert, and I am the thirsty traveler. And so after you become close, enough to be in solid contact, you just pull yourself away, you withdraw and leave me lost in an endless maze of mixed thoughts and questioned feelings. Some mysterious force appeared without reason, without planning, without any know-how. Whether it is right or wrong, proper or improper, leading to somewhere or not leading to anywhere, it just appeared, and it is attracting the 2 poles together. Or at least that's what one of the poles believes...

Perplexing enough, it just goes on and on.

Confusing enough, nobody has any idea what's going on.

Enigmatic enough, no one controls it, and it seems run-on.
I'm not really sure who you are, what you are or where you are,
Yet all I know is that I want you there, being near or even far...