Do I Know You?

It is eye widening how you need time to really know the people you thought you knew, enough time, lots of time. It is also mind opening to look back at your previous decisions and see how wrong and short-sighted they were.

I can see you now without the makeup and glitters, a trivial, careless, arrogant, cold, selfish, playful, hypocrite, immature, deceiving type of person. I can see why I once chose you and was amidst taking the serious decision to fight the world for you. I can see that between your sugary words and captivating smiles and tender voice, there were other intentions deep behind: there is nothing special about you, but I just needed you to fill up an empty spot that's all; you're not intended to complete me and I'm not intended to complete you, or anybody, and love, love is only a game of hearts, while soul mate and for better and worse and happily ever after, well, you'd better give up on those, for they are only some silly romantic ideas woven by the worn out fabrics of your naive imagination! I can see why I stopped, I suddenly stopped, to have a moment to think it over, for there are signs that cannot be ignored.

I can see you, but have I ever really seen you? I can see you, but have you ever seen me? I never put makeup, I never wore glitter, and never will, yet still you aren't seeing me, are you? Or perhaps you are seeing me but only the way you want to see me, a step to tread upon, a doormat to wipe your dirt on, a shadow to cover your insecurities, and another man falling behind. We have a man down! MAYDAY, MAYDAY! I think he got hit (by me, but who cares!). I think he needs help. He was trying to help me and then he fell. I think he needs help .. Over! But he didn't know that I never considered a word he said, for what I want I will always get. It is so easy, and they are all the same. Easily distracted, easily controlled and manipulated. And I wanted him and I got him, and now it's time to get rid of him; his time is up, he's an old fashion to throw away, and his services are no longer required.
Hang on, for help is on the way ... Over!