"Because I'm afraid of you!" he says with a trembling voice, leaving her shocked from such an unexpected answer. "Yes .. I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid about you. I'm afraid for you ... I'm just afraid that you'd love me!" Then silence roams the place......
He thinks again about what he has just said. How could he say that to her? He has never been that open to anybody to say what he really feels. He has always liked that sense of mystery that people felt in him. A man of few words, a man of integrity. He respects everybody and expects everybody to respect him in return. He does not like to hurt anybody so that nobody would hurt him. He never gave importance about what people would say about his extreme calmness and his many times of solitude: some would say he is so intelligent, so innocent and kind, while others would think he is arrogant, complicated, not social, tight minded, or even a psychopath!
She, on the other hand, does not know what to think about. How could he be afraid of her? What does he mean? Afraid of loving her?! No, it was afraid that she loves him!! She wants to reply to him but she just cannot. Her feminine pride tells her to tell him that she has never loved him, that love has never been a part of the equation. But has love really not been part of the equation?! They have known each other for enough time now that if she lies he would sense it, the same as her sensing it when he even tries to twist the truth about anything. So she remains silent, hoping he would liberate her of such prison of quietness, a prison she cannot bear.
"Do you think I cannot notice what is happening here? Do you think I cannot see the shine in your eyes that exists for nobody but me? We have known each other for a long time now ... You are a beautiful human being. Everything about you is just perfect: inner beauty and outer beauty, a mind so bright, a heart so pure. God knows that you are someone dear to me, someone I respect so much. But this cannot happen. This is a mistake. That is not the way things should go ... I felt that day would come. I tried to escape from it, but I was deep inside sure that sooner or later we should have this talk, this so difficult talk."
"Do you think I cannot notice what is happening here? Do you think I cannot see the shine in your eyes that exists for nobody but me? We have known each other for a long time now ... You are a beautiful human being. Everything about you is just perfect: inner beauty and outer beauty, a mind so bright, a heart so pure. God knows that you are someone dear to me, someone I respect so much. But this cannot happen. This is a mistake. That is not the way things should go ... I felt that day would come. I tried to escape from it, but I was deep inside sure that sooner or later we should have this talk, this so difficult talk."
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